I hate to double post after the last one, that is very important to me, but I have had an horrible day.
My mother had an appointment with a surgeon today, to get a nasty pimple off her neck.
1 - My cat just doesn't want to obey, at all. If we seem to get close to the door he stands there and don't you dare open because he will be out quicker than you can say the words. Which is not the end of the world usually, as I have no social life, but is firstly tiring as fuck and secondly, what do you do when you have an important appointment and the circus just doesn't end ?
Attempts to lift him and take him to another room were done, as usual. But he is not stupid and now get back in front of the door quicker than me. And growl at me when I approach my hands. And murder them.
It finally worked by a convoluted door scheme, but I'm a tired. I love him, with all my heart, and he seems to love us no question. But he wants to get out. I don't want him to get out and risk having a car accident. I don't know what to do.
Then the cherry on top. You know how we manage to keep our heads barely out of the water budget wise, always living in overdraft.
2 - Appointment with surgeon was planned at 60 euros. Turns out it was really 50 ! Yeah !
3 - But the unplanned anesthesiologist was also 50.
4 - And the operation will 'just' cost us 220 euros.
I don't have that kind of money. I got out of the awkward moment by making it feel like I had not my checks on me, but I will have to make an uncovered check. They will take it next month and if I don't find the money I will be in hot water with the French National Bank.
No need to say I droned back to my home in a semi shock state, and even considered for an instant to throw my life away. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not really interested in so extreme a gesture, but I'm really getting tired.
I don't buy games anymore, life is globally horrible, but we endure. Because that's our only option. But there comes a point when enough is just enough.
I don't shit money, I don't print it, we buy food, pay for the many vampires who want their monthly due, we pay our debts, we are not bad people. But there is a limit to what I can do with out budget and what I can endure. I started the day with a couple dozens euros unallocated in the budget, finished it at -320.
I just can't.
I'm sorry if this was too long, or uninteresting, I needed to let that out.
PS. Due to how social security now works in France, those multiple 50 euros ? We won't be reimbursed, 99% certain.