Impulsivity
I'm a very impulsive person, but it's mostly due to the newfound knowledge of my ADHD that has been diagnosed since I was a toddler with my parents choosing to never medicate me, but rather put me into therapy. While I never found out about that condition until late last year, I was always labeled as a very pushy & hyperactive person, though I never did see it that way until I got into college where I noticed patterns I never noticed beforehand.
I decided to seek professional help & I'm currently medicated to keep that in check, though that also requires a lot of discipline from my part. Discipline, I'm currently developing as time goes on. It's extremely hard, especially when your parents where very oblivious to the fact & still forget that my learning patterns differ from most people.
For the most part, friends & high school classmates have been very forgiving when I explained them my condition which I am thankful for. Though it's very difficult to explain to someone that doesn't fully understand what ADHD is.
Though I've grown to explain it with ease.
Imagine if you had Chrome open with hundreds of tabs open, but you can't seem to find where the music is coming from or how to stop it.
(For example: I cannot handle more than 6 people talking at once, it diverts my focus trying to keep track of everything that makes me want to give up or leave at times due to amount of stress.)
I also use this one that helps a lot as well.
Imagine if you had a task list where upon completion, you find one thing that has been neglected far too long to notice until it's far too late.
(For example: I forgot to pay my electric bill & they cut my power, though it was quickly fixed it was a nightmare to handle)
It's a huge problem that I'm still working the kinks, but thankfully my college has programs that help people like that. Keeping study habits, managing my time spent & keeping a habit of leaving notes around as a sort of reminder has been helpful to not impulsively spending money that I don't have or maintaining a consistent budget with priorities kept straight.
If I could have as much money as possible I'd be an impulsive person that would either get as many games from people's wishlist to them or accomplish as many gags or thank you packages to a lot of people that have been helpful to not only me, but many other over the course of the years.
I'd love to do it, but I need to develop the discipline to keep expanding quickly & instead focus on improving what I have at the moment.