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Hektor

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Nov 1, 2018
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I'll be turning 30 before this year is over and i honestly can't handle it.

Never celebrated my birthday before because my parents never gave a shit.
Thought some years ago i could change that but then had my run in with all these shitty, abusive friends from my earlier posts.
Now im alone again and probably won't be doing anything for it.

I was thinking i could take friends to Disneyland for my 30th, but alas.
Not like it matters what i am thinking. If there is one thing everyone seems to agree upon is that my opinion, needs and wishes don't matter.

Idk just mad low energy as of late.

I just wanna have boardgame, DND or movie nights with friends and occasionally go out and on vacation once a year.
For the time my garbage ex friends and me played DND, i always baked Brownies or Muffins when we met.
But no one can appreciate such things.
 

Li Kao

It’s a strange world. Let’s keep it that way.
Jan 28, 2019
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I just wanna have boardgame, DND or movie nights with friends and occasionally go out and on vacation once a year.
For the time my garbage ex friends and me played DND, i always baked Brownies or Muffins when we met.
But no one can appreciate such things.
For boardgames and DnD, that can be arranged online. Not the same, I know. Even movies I think the kids watch along on the internet.
I refuse to go to Disneyland with a Yoko Taro fan, though. Gotta draw the line somewhere, after all.
 

PC-tan

Low Tier Weeb
Jan 19, 2019
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I'll be turning 30 before this year is over and i honestly can't handle it.

Never celebrated my birthday before because my parents never gave a shit.
Thought some years ago i could change that but then had my run in with all these shitty, abusive friends from my earlier posts.
Now im alone again and probably won't be doing anything for it.

I was thinking i could take friends to Disneyland for my 30th, but alas.
Not like it matters what i am thinking. If there is one thing everyone seems to agree upon is that my opinion, needs and wishes don't matter.

Idk just mad low energy as of late.

I just wanna have boardgame, DND or movie nights with friends and occasionally go out and on vacation once a year.
For the time my garbage ex friends and me played DND, i always baked Brownies or Muffins when we met.
But no one can appreciate such things.
Are we talking Disneyland Disneyland? Or Disneyland Paris?

Even if you go by yourself you can still have a lot of fun by yourself. I went to Disneyland earlier this year and while I did spend some of it with my younger sister most of that trip was me by myself and I had fun.
 

MegaApple

Just another Video Game Enthusiast
Sep 20, 2018
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I'll be turning 30 before this year is over and i honestly can't handle it.

Never celebrated my birthday before because my parents never gave a shit.
Thought some years ago i could change that but then had my run in with all these shitty, abusive friends from my earlier posts.
Now im alone again and probably won't be doing anything for it.

I was thinking i could take friends to Disneyland for my 30th, but alas.
Not like it matters what i am thinking. If there is one thing everyone seems to agree upon is that my opinion, needs and wishes don't matter.

Idk just mad low energy as of late.

I just wanna have boardgame, DND or movie nights with friends and occasionally go out and on vacation once a year.
For the time my garbage ex friends and me played DND, i always baked Brownies or Muffins when we met.
But no one can appreciate such things.
Words can't console much but, you should give online DnD a go at least.
Maybe you can find them in your city or state? That way you can find people to connect. I know its a hard task.

I can relate to you on opinions not mattering to other part. Feels powerless...
 

Li Kao

It’s a strange world. Let’s keep it that way.
Jan 28, 2019
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Cacher I fear it is kind of going downwards everywhere.:/ Im worried about my future in France as well. My gf sometimes wants us to move to Sweden to the north and live a simple life and I actually think that might not be the worst idea.
You don't say. I just made our weekly food order and saw some lamb shoulder for 50 euros. Now okay, this was never a cheap piece of meat, but we are not even on a downward spiral anymore. It's free fall.
I didn't really appreciate the new 'small appetite' range from a known brand either. It's not small appetite you motherfuckers, it's inflation everywhere.
 

C-Dub

Makoto Niijima Fan Club President
Dec 23, 2018
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Cacher I fear it is kind of going downwards everywhere.:/ Im worried about my future in France as well. My gf sometimes wants us to move to Sweden to the north and live a simple life and I actually think that might not be the worst idea.
If I could get out of the UK, I would. Sadly, the Anglosphere is insane right now so I haven’t really got anywhere else to go.
 

C-Dub

Makoto Niijima Fan Club President
Dec 23, 2018
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Honestly, I kinda have one eye on Ireland. Not necessarily to live there, though I hear Dublin is a nice city.

More because if Northern Ireland decides it's had enough of England being England, I expect Scotland and Wales to follow them out soon after.

The UK as a political/national entity disintegrating might make living on this miserable island quite bearable.
 

NarohDethan

There was a fish in the percolator!
Apr 6, 2019
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Honestly, I kinda have one eye on Ireland. Not necessarily to live there, though I hear Dublin is a nice city.

More because if Northern Ireland decides it's had enough of England being England, I expect Scotland and Wales to follow them out soon after.

The UK as a political/national entity disintegrating might make living on this miserable island quite bearable.
There's a handful of places I'd live outside my own country tbh. Canada, Germany, Chile, Uruguay, and very specific parts of the US like the Pacific Northwest.
 

Derrick01

MetaMember
Oct 6, 2018
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I'm still struggling with the issues I detailed here earlier this year however some have gotten worse despite trying several antidepressants. I had to stop wellbutrin and zoloft because of the awful insomnia they gave me but my body was able to handle prozac and I was on it for like 4 months up to about a week ago. I stopped it because the apathy/anhedonia I mentioned has gotten real bad to the point where I'm just kinda flat and bored with everything now. Games, movies, tv shows...there's stuff I want to play or watch I just have no real motivation to do it because I know I'll end up getting nothing out of it. I have no idea if prozac made that worse that's why I'm experimenting and seeing what happens.

My doc and I talked a bit more than a month ago and we agreed that I probably have adhd that was never diagnosed or treated, and as I started looking back on parts of my life under the lens of having adhd it made a lot of sense. However the part I can't understand is if it is adhd why did it suddenly get too much this year.? Aside from the boredom issue the other main problem is I've noticed that some games completely wear me out mentally after about an hour, like to the point where I have to go lay down for a 20 minute rest because my brain is completely fried. It seems to happen more often with modern graphically intensive games and I have a theory that it's because of all the detail in these games, I try to take it all in and my brain can't handle it and overloads, but it's just a guess on my part I have limited understanding of adhd still and tbh there's not a lot of good info online about this stuff and gaming (most were saying gaming helps adhd people lol). I'm honestly not even sure if the problem I just described IS adhd or not.

Anyway around the start of this month she prescribed me adderall 10mg twice a day (well, the generic amphetamine salt combo) but so far it seems to do nothing to me other than make my heart rate speed up a little bit at random times. I was told that I'd feel it kick in within half an hour but these only last for like 5 hours but I feel absolutely nothing, I'm even still very fatigued in the morning and early afternoon after taking it. I go back later this week and I assume the dosage will increase but who knows. Anyone have experience with adhd here? If anything I'd like to know if what I said sounds like adhd or something else is going on. I know the usual answer is go to some specialist and I may eventually have to do that but when you've been to like 7 different kinds of doctors this year and none were able to help you start to lose faith in them.
 

low-G

old school cool
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I know a fuck ton of people that got Covid this year, myself and my entire family included (first time for all of us), which includes my youngest (toddler) daughter, and my elderly mom and aunt, who both have cancer... But thankfully at this point we're all recovering, I had been sick for over a month but other than a cough, runny nose, and some other problems I'm finally feeling pretty well.

A lot of coworkers and people I know online getting Covid for the first time this year as well...