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[PossiblyPudding]

The last couple days I've been feeling increasingly alone and it's dumb.. I mean I'm not physically alone. I've got family and of course my pets, not to mention like I said in another thread I've got pretty much the entirety of June to hang out a with a good friend of mine.

And yet I can't shake it. This is the one that always makes me feel the worst too. Because like mentioned before.. there's no reason to feel like this and as it continues it morphs into me feeling stupid and then useless. Which to be fair the first one isn't too far off. The second I've gotten better about realizing that, no, I do have some value.

It doesn't help that Father's Day is getting closer either but that's another can of worms entirely and thankfully I've developed a way to cope over the years.

So I guess as a heads up if I happen to disappear for a day or two it's me working through this.

 

[NarohDethan]

The last couple days I've been feeling increasingly alone and it's dumb.. I mean I'm not physically alone. I've got family and of course my pets, not to mention like I said in another thread I've got pretty much the entirety of June to hang out a with a good friend of mine.

And yet I can't shake it. This is the one that always makes me feel the worst too. Because like mentioned before.. there's no reason to feel like this and as it continues it morphs into me feeling stupid and then useless. Which to be fair the first one isn't too far off. The second I've gotten better about realizing that, no, I do have some value.

It doesn't help that Father's Day is getting closer either but that's another can of worms entirely and thankfully I've developed a way to cope over the years.

So I guess as a heads up if I happen to disappear for a day or two it's me working through this.

We are here for you ! Take some time off if you need it

 

[PossiblyPudding]

We are here for you ! Take some time off if you need it

I appreciate it, NarohDethan. You all help a lot more than you could ever realize, I'm really glad I finally decided to join when I did.

I'll still try to pop in from time to time the next few days but yeah.. not something I can exactly promise at the moment. And don't worry, you all are stuck with me for the long haul. Especially when it comes to the weird animal dialogues I set up in the pet thread, those aren't going anywhere.

 

[lashman]

The last couple days I've been feeling increasingly alone and it's dumb.. I mean I'm not physically alone. I've got family and of course my pets, not to mention like I said in another thread I've got pretty much the entirety of June to hang out a with a good friend of mine.

And yet I can't shake it. This is the one that always makes me feel the worst too. Because like mentioned before.. there's no reason to feel like this and as it continues it morphs into me feeling stupid and then useless. Which to be fair the first one isn't too far off. The second I've gotten better about realizing that, no, I do have some value.

It doesn't help that Father's Day is getting closer either but that's another can of worms entirely and thankfully I've developed a way to cope over the years.

So I guess as a heads up if I happen to disappear for a day or two it's me working through this.

yeah, i know the feeling, trust me ... everything seems like it should be perfectly fine and you should be perfectly happy - but you're not, for some reason ... happens to me sometimes as well, and it suuuuuucks because there's really not much you can do about it ... when your brain "knows better"

either way - we're always here for you, dude ... stay strong

I'm really glad I finally decided to join when I did.

... and we're all glad you joined when you did too!

And don't worry, you all are stuck with me for the long haul. Especially when it comes to the weird animal dialogues I set up in the pet thread, those aren't going anywhere.

that's what we're hoping for ... we need most pics of your cats in that thread!

 

[Noytax]

In the beginning of 2018, our old car broke down. The problem is that it was an accessible car, made for my younger brother.
It ended up with the whole family pretty much having to stay at home almost the whole year. I did all the food shopping together with my mom, but my brother had to stay home. Took almost 8 months to get it fixed, since no one managed to find the problem, it all cost us a total of $4k to get in working condition.

During that time we were without a car, we planned on buying a new one. Fast forward to October last year, it ended up with my dad being tricked by a car salesman. I had met the salesman a couple times before, and told him that we needed a car with higher roof (H2), but when i went and picked up the car a week ago, we noticed that it was a H1.
The company that did the work on the car to get it accessible for my brother, also didn't notice that it was the wrong car, even if they had it in their papers that it was supposed to be a H2L2 car. My brother sits in a wheelchair, and every time he enters the car, his head hits the roof.

The problem now is that we have got financial help from an authority, and we might have to pay back everything, since the car isn't any good for my brother. How much do we have to pay back? Almost $20k.
I'm just tired of everything, the problems in our family never ends. All i want right now is to visit my relatives in Finland, but it seems like we will be staying home again this year. Thing is, that with everything that's happened the last 2 years, i'm not surprised stuff like this happens to us.

I know i'm not that active here, but i'm just glad this thread exists. it means much to me that i can write about my problems here, since i don't have anyone to talk to. There's a lot of thoughts spinning in my head all the time, and sometimes it just gets to the point where i just have to write it down somewhere.
Started having my strange nightmares again, i wake up in the middle of the night and i see someone standing next to my bed. Not the first time i've seen that person, and he is the reason why i've been sleeping on the couch for 10 years now.
Welp, not the right thread for that i guess, kinda wish there was a thread for paranormal stuff.

If anything, i hope that everything gets better at some point. I just want to get back to how i was before all my problems started.
It's gotten to the point where i just don't enjoy doing anything. My sleeping problems have got a lot worse too, and the nightmares aren't making it better.

 

[lashman]

I know i'm not that active here, but i'm just glad this thread exists. it means much to me that i can write about my problems here, since i don't have anyone to talk to. There's a lot of thoughts spinning in my head all the time, and sometimes it just gets to the point where i just have to write it down somewhere.

we're always here to listen, if needed hope things will get better for you soon, though!

Welp, not the right thread for that i guess, kinda wish there was a thread for paranormal stuff.

you can always make one if you want

 

[Noytax]

we're always here to listen, if needed hope things will get better for you soon, though!





you can always make one if you want

Yeah, i think i'll do that. Been through alot of strange things over the years that i can't find an explanation for.
Problem is that i've never done a thread before, so i'm kinda worried it's not going to be up to par.

 

[lashman]

Yeah, i think i'll do that. Been through alot of strange things over the years that i can't find an explanation for.
Problem is that i've never done a thread before, so i'm kinda worried it's not going to be up to par.

no need to worry ... there are no "standards" or anything just do whatever you think is best (or good enough)

don't forget about adding a cover image, though

 

[NarohDethan]

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[PossiblyPudding]

Writing it behind a react just in case lol

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[NarohDethan]

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Freelancing is almost non existent in my country, so sadly it isnt an option for me

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[RionaaM]

The last couple days I've been feeling increasingly alone and it's dumb.. I mean I'm not physically alone. I've got family and of course my pets, not to mention like I said in another thread I've got pretty much the entirety of June to hang out a with a good friend of mine.

And yet I can't shake it. This is the one that always makes me feel the worst too. Because like mentioned before.. there's no reason to feel like this and as it continues it morphs into me feeling stupid and then useless. Which to be fair the first one isn't too far off. The second I've gotten better about realizing that, no, I do have some value.

It doesn't help that Father's Day is getting closer either but that's another can of worms entirely and thankfully I've developed a way to cope over the years.

So I guess as a heads up if I happen to disappear for a day or two it's me working through this.

I totally get what you mean. There were a few times when I've felt completely alone in a room with my friends, feeling like I was a world apart from them and couldn't reach them. I was physically right there with them, but not mentally, and it's depressing. So yeah, please take all the time you need to cope with those feelings, and know that we're here for you whenever you're ready to come back.

 

[PossiblyPudding]

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[Le Pertti]

So my gf had found my blog, where I very openly talk about my issues, where I even say that I'm unlovable. So yeah she was little shocked but told her that I'm working on it and that I'm getting help and it's not an issues for to worry about. But yeah it's weird to actually be in a good place now, to be stable. And I think seeing a psychiatrist is what has helped.

Saw Rocketman today and wow didn't know he was so broken and I could relate so much to the issues he had. Thankfully I don't have any talent so I don't have to deal with fame and money and drugs and shit like that.XD

 

[PossiblyPudding]

But yeah it's weird to actually be in a good place now, to be stable. And I think seeing a psychiatrist is what has helped.

That's great, Monooboe! It's good to hear that things are turning in a positive direction for you.

 

[Le Pertti]

That's great, Monooboe! It's good to hear that things are turning in a positive direction for you.

Thanks! It feels super weird to think that things will be alright.XD

 

[NarohDethan]

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Thank you for the support, RionaaM! You pretty much nailed it with your description. It's like you just want to scream, "I'm right here! Someone.. anyone."

Things have been a little better the last two days but still not quite through it yet.

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[deftonesrcool]

Thankfully I don't have any talent so I don't have to deal with fame and money and drugs and shit like that.XD

Don't be so modest. You're a solid photographer, and you know it. I've been casually toying with videography for nearly a decade and I guarantee you could teach me a few tricks.

 

[Le Pertti]

Don't be so modest. You're a solid photographer, and you know it. I've been casually toying with videography for nearly a decade and I guarantee you could teach me a few tricks.

Thanks for saying that! But compared to Elton John probably most people look talentless haha.

 

[deftonesrcool]

So it's 6 minutes 'till midnight on a Friday night. I live alone and am halfway in a daze, going through one of my dysmorphic, "does life really exist?" mind states. I could absolutely just invite a friend over or go out or something, but I haven't felt all that social lately despite being in a positive mod overall. The new job has helped loads.

Living alone might not always be the best for me, despite the very idea of a roomie sorta grosses me out. I'm 28 and I dont wanna live with someone unless they were a significant other of sorts. My last gf moved in with me, dumped me, and then wanted to stay in the guest bedroom still - lmfao, no.
Sometimes I'm just exploding for someone to talk to. That's why forums like these are so great.

I just watched Kim Kardashian and then Kendall Jenner eat some nasty food on James Corden's SPill or Fill your Guts segment on Youtube. I don't know anything about them, but I do know the Jenner sister who is dating Travis Scott wears NIN merch, and I saw a pic of Kim Kardashian wearing a Morbid Angel sweatshirt. Watching them drink sardine smoothies and bird saliva like champs though makes me think these two are underrated, I don't care if they actually listen to bands I like or not. I'm pro-Kardashian... deep breaths

I need to get laid again soon. Jesus Fuck.
Like I legit feel sorta fucking crazy guys. idk

i should go lie down. i wanna play kotor and i really need to clean my house but like fuck this, i might feel better inn the morning

more deep breaths
The mind and the body are so closely related. I should start exercising seriously again. I'm about 168 lbs at 5 ft 9 rn. Last yr I went from like 190 to 145.

Buddhism is tight lm I should study that more if I plan to make it out alive

 

[deftonesrcool]

5:24 am Saturday morning, and feeling so much better after some sleep. Reading that past post now feels mildly embarrassing but I'll leave it because whatever.

I wonder why I get like that. Just so scatter brained and thinking too quickly.
A therapist prescribed me xannies for it when I was a kid but I got hooked and abused em. I do better without. My moms a schizo, I wonder if any of that is residual... nah, prolly just stress. Living in a house alone makes you have to think about everything at once. My friends tell me I'm way too harshon myself.o

Morning MC. Hope all is well.

 

[Blizniak]

5:24 am Saturday morning, and feeling so much better after some sleep. Reading that past post now feels mildly embarrassing but I'll leave it because whatever.

I wonder why I get like that. Just so scatter brained and thinking too quickly.
A therapist prescribed me xannies for it when I was a kid but I got hooked and abused em. I do better without. My moms a schizo, I wonder if any of that is residual... nah, prolly just stress. Living in a house alone makes you have to think about everything at once. My friends tell me I'm way too harshon myself.o

Morning MC. Hope all is well.

Yeah it's always embarassing afterwards but that's OK. Your friends are right. You just get into this deep thinking mode and rush from one thing to the next, I do that too. As long as it's not something that's constantly happening I wouldn't worry about it too much.

 

[deftonesrcool]

Yeah it's always embarassing afterwards but that's OK. Your friends are right. You just get into this deep thinking mode and rush from one thing to the next, I do that too. As long as it's not something that's constantly happening I wouldn't worry about it too much.

I appreciate that more than you realize. Thanks. Y'know all this time I thought your avatar was from some obscure metal album I was unfamiliar with, and I finally reverse Googled it to discover it's a magic card Idk the first thing about Magic, but my friends and I play D&D so similar worlds... no?

Anywho, here's part of the YT rabbit hole I went down last night. Kim really is beautiful and seems like she'd be fun to grab a beer with, not sure why people critique her so harshly. I'd laugh so hard if she actually listened to like Celtic Frost and Morbid Angel lmfao. Good on her for studying to be a lawyer or whatever. She puts up with Kanye's crazy ass, which is probably a job within itself.

 

[lashman]

My friends tell me I'm way too harshon myself.

just a bit

but yeah - hope you'll feel better soon, man .... just try not to think about stuff like that too much .... watch something instead, play a game, read a book, or something

 

[PossiblyPudding]

The mind and the body are so closely related. I should start exercising seriously again. I'm about 168 lbs at 5 ft 9 rn. Last yr I went from like 190 to 145.

Buddhism is tight lm I should study that more if I plan to make it out alive

I can definitely vouch for exercise being a great way to clear your mind for a little while. I used to be extremely overweight, obese actually, for half of my life I weighed 286 and I'm also 5'9". So not great. How I didn't have any medical problems as a result I have no clue.. just lucky I guess.

But nowadays I use it as a way to kind of relax and let off steam. It's a bit weird to say that it relaxes me given that it's physical exertion but it does help.

Also while I don't have any personal experience with Buddhism since I'm not really spiritual or religious I can say that one of my brothers started practicing it several years ago and once he began to take it seriously it really helped him.

My friends tell me I'm way too harshon myself.

It can be good when folks help you realize that. I wish someone had brought that up with me a long time ago since it's always been one of my biggest struggles.

Since I'm still so new to the forum I can't say that I know everyone all that well yet but I will say that you've always come across as a good person and it's always heartwarming seeing you pop in this thread to help others whether it's with words of encouragement or links to helpful videos.

So what I'm getting at is try not to beat yourself up too much, sure it can be a bit embarrassing to let random thoughts out but a little embarrassment is better than keeping them in and having them eat away at you.

 

[deftonesrcool]

I can definitely vouch for exercise being a great way to clear your mind for a little while. I used to be extremely overweight, obese actually, for half of my life I weighed 286 and I'm also 5'9". So not great. How I didn't have any medical problems as a result I have no clue.. just lucky I guess.

But nowadays I use it as a way to kind of relax and let off steam. It's a bit weird to say that it relaxes me given that it's physical exertion but it does help.

Also while I don't have any personal experience with Buddhism since I'm not really spiritual or religious I can say that one of my brothers started practicing it several years ago and once he began to take it seriously it really helped him.


It can be good when folks help you realize that. I wish someone had brought that up with me a long time ago since it's always been one of my biggest struggles.

Since I'm still so new to the forum I can't say that I know everyone all that well yet but I will say that you've always come across as a good person and it's always heartwarming seeing you pop in this thread to help others whether it's with words of encouragement or links to helpful videos.

So what I'm getting at is try not to beat yourself up too much, sure it can be a bit embarrassing to let random thoughts out but a little embarrassment is better than keeping them in and having them eat away at you.

First of all, thank you so much for your kind words. That means a hell of a lot to me, I've been through some stuff in my day ahaha.

Exercise is great. I have this theory that humans are just animals. Call me crazy, lol. I'm not a spiritual person whatsoever, despite being raised super Catholic, etc. What I do feel though is that we really aren't meant to live the way we do, we're too far removed from our natural environments. That's why exercise helps, keeps us moving as though we were still hunter/gatherers, and sets off posi vibes in our brains as a result. Eating healthy helps too. Put good in, get good out. I do my best to avoid processed foods, and eat more-so like what I would in the wild.

Im not a strict Buddhist, but it really carved out a nice little niche for me to set some guidelines for life. It's nice to not have to do all the footwork for your own personal life philosophy. I love the idea of everything being connected, and therefore the self not really existing. Meditation helps me calm down my overloaded brain when nothing else can work, and it isn't harmful in the same way that drugs and alcohol can be. I'm mostly sober although I must admit I will hit weed sometimes and usually regret it soon after hahaha. Idk, there's peace in the realization that we're all just cogs in the wheel, all connected, and that everything in the universe is impermanent. I find it much more comforting than just saying, "yeah i'm an atheist". lol

I also like keeping myself busy by doing DIY tasks around the house, keeping up w yard work, learning guitar, reading, gaming etc.

"The way out is through," to quote Trent Reznor.

But yeah, thanks again. You're a p fly cat yourself. lol

 

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[NarohDethan]

I just want to lie down and cry. I've never felt so useless in my career.

 

[PossiblyPudding]

I just want to lie down and cry. I've never felt so useless in my career.

Oh no.. I'm sorry, Naroh. If you ever want to talk about it we're here to listen.

 

[lashman]

I just want to lie down and cry. I've never felt so useless in my career.

 

[NarohDethan]

Oh no.. I'm sorry, Naroh. If you ever want to talk about it we're here to listen.

Thanks guys

 

[Le Pertti]

Haha good luck to my mental wellbeing, met with an "ex* yesterday and realized that I was quite in love with her and had to tell my gf.

The "ex" says first that she loves me too but changes her mind, well she has a boyfriend, but tells me she could never leave that because my life is way too unstable, and well too poor.

So now no one is speaking with me haha.


But still, I do feel I'll be fine. It just hurts so fucking bad right now . And knowing that my life is such self fulling misery thing.

 

[Xiaomi]

Coming into the end of the school year like a plane out of fuel. I'm supervising a large production that tenth- and eleventh-graders are supposed to be doing but most of the kids aren't even showing up to our scheduled time. The admin's response is basically "well they have other things to do, so either let them do it at the last minute or cancel it." But I carry a big sense of responsibility in everything I do, so I just feel like I've been set up to fail and that I should have just taken over and run things from the beginning. Because at this point either I cancel the show so that no one's happy, or put something embarrassingly bad on stage that no one will be proud of. I feel like every time I push my student leaders to do more work, stop plagiarizing, be directors and planners, they just resist and hate me more for taking away their laptop and cellphone time. The only things that have been completed for this show are the script and a piece of the set that another teacher and I built. I can't stand not being appreciated and not getting support, even from kids who don't know what they're doing. So it just makes me into a generally bitter, angry person when I have to be around them.

As much as I try and dress it up as being supportive, I really hate their attitudes and wish I could walk away and let them shoulder the embarrassment of not having done a damn thing for ten weeks.

 

[PossiblyPudding]

But still, I do feel I'll be fine. It just hurts so fucking bad right now . And knowing that my life is such self fulling misery thing.

Love can certainly be a strange and frustrating thing at times..

Hang on to that positivity. Things will get better again and I'll be hoping that it's soon for you.

Coming into the end of the school year like a plane out of fuel. I'm supervising a large production that tenth- and eleventh-graders are supposed to be doing but most of the kids aren't even showing up to our scheduled time. The admin's response is basically "well they have other things to do, so either let them do it at the last minute or cancel it." But I carry a big sense of responsibility in everything I do, so I just feel like I've been set up to fail and that I should have just taken over and run things from the beginning. Because at this point either I cancel the show so that no one's happy, or put something embarrassingly bad on stage that no one will be proud of. I feel like every time I push my student leaders to do more work, stop plagiarizing, be directors and planners, they just resist and hate me more for taking away their laptop and cellphone time. The only things that have been completed for this show are the script and a piece of the set that another teacher and I built. I can't stand not being appreciated and not getting support, even from kids who don't know what they're doing. So it just makes me into a generally bitter, angry person when I have to be around them.

As much as I try and dress it up as being supportive, I really hate their attitudes and wish I could walk away and let them shoulder the embarrassment of not having done a damn thing for ten weeks.

That's such a horrible spot to be put in. I cannot even begin to imagine the amount of frustration. I mentioned in a previous post that I'm terrible with career advice so sadly I'm not much help there but I will say that we're always here to listen should you need to vent some more.

 

[Xiaomi]

That's such a horrible spot to be put in. I cannot even begin to imagine the amount of frustration. I mentioned in a previous post that I'm terrible with career advice so sadly I'm not much help there but I will say that we're always here to listen should you need to vent some more.

It's not all bad; I do have a few students in the group whom I love working with and who are eager and highly motivated to perform, but that just makes me feel worse that I can't give them what they want because their classmates simply don't come to practice. They deserve better.

Mostly I'm tired of being at a second-rate school and want to build something great. But I feel powerless and ineffectual. I'm actively avoided by admins at this point because I guess my frustration shows too much. Team player, get my work done on time and all of that, but I probably raised issues a few too many times so I just get ignored now.

But yeah if this doesn't change in two years I'm gone. I'll finish up my time with the class of 2021, whom I've worked with since they were in seventh grade, and then find a school that is not a clown show. That's the best I can hope for at this point.

 

[Le Pertti]

Love can certainly be a strange and frustrating thing at times..

Hang on to that positivity. Things will get better again and I'll be hoping that it's soon for you.

I admit, the positivity is hard to keep, the familiar suicidal thought keep popping up and I have to tell myself that I will be fine. It just hit to the core, all the things she said why she can't chose me and the worst part is I get it, women usually don't go for the homeless starving artists types, so that I even was a consideration is huge.

Then it comes to my girlfriend, I fully expected her never wanting to speak with me again and I don't think she will forgive me, but she just said she needs time and I don't know really what to do with that, if I keep going on with her it doesn't feel fair towards her but at the same time I do like her but it's very new and also she doesn't really know the shit I've been through, so she doesn't know the unstable life I've had, which scared the first girl away.

 

[PossiblyPudding]

I admit, the positivity is hard to keep, the familiar suicidal thought keep popping up and I have to tell myself that I will be fine. It just hit to the core, all the things she said why she can't chose me and the worst part is I get it, women usually don't go for the homeless starving artists types, so that I even was a consideration is huge.

Oh yeah.. I know where you're coming from. That's usually my first go to thought too. Even with minor slights these days and it only makes me feel worse because I realize how much of an overreaction it is. Yet it still pops in my head no matter what. And to be perfectly honest there's times that my optimism is a facade, not because I don't believe what I'm saying or that I secretly wish ill on someone else but because I know if I don't keep it up it'll break me.

Then it comes to my girlfriend, I fully expected her never wanting to speak with me again and I don't she will forgive me, but she just said she needs time and that I don't really know what to do with, I keep going on with her it doesn't feel fair towards her but at the same time I do like her but it's very new and also she doesn't really know the shit I've been through, so she doesn't know the unstable life I've had, which scared the first girl away.

I wish there was better help I could give here.. I really do.

I've been as unlucky with love as I have with my career so my advice would probably be way off the mark. I will say that you should be proud that even with everything that's thrown at you that you haven't given up on love. I know that sounds a bit lame perhaps but the alternative is terrible.. speaking from experience.

I know it's not easy right now but hang in there, Monooboe.

 

[Le Pertti]

blindrhythm I really appreciate it! And a cat gif! I love cats.

 

[lashman]

blindrhythm I really appreciate it! And a cat gif! I love cats.

 

[JackPineSavage]

one of friend of my just reminded that didn't you just be suicidal. and i was like what oh yeah i really tried to kill myself not that long a ago. that seems like so long ago. two months ago i had no hope at all and was like drink all my money and then suicide with drugs is the best solution. now i got a job and some kind of future. unemployment and uncertainty is the one that fucked me up bad. i was certain i'll never get a fucking job but some miracles do happen lol

 

[PossiblyPudding]

one of friend of my just reminded that didn't you just be suicidal. and i was like what oh yeah i really tried to kill myself not that long a ago. that seems like so long ago. two months ago i had no hope at all and was like drink all my money and then suicide with drugs is the best solution. now i got a job and some kind of future. unemployment and uncertainty is the one that fucked me up bad. i was certain i'll never get a fucking job but some miracles do happen lol

So happy that things are on a positive track for you!

 

[JackPineSavage]

So happy that things are on a positive track for you!

thanks mang! it's weird because i was so sure there is no future for me after 3 years of unemployment but then a sudden job that is kinda what i studied for

 

[PossiblyPudding]

thanks mang! it's weird because i was so sure there is no future for me after 3 years of unemployment but then a sudden job that is kinda what i studied for

That's amazing! Congrats!

Hearing stuff like that happen is always encouraging and heartwarming.

 

[JackPineSavage]

That's amazing! Congrats!

Hearing stuff like that happen is always encouraging and heartwarming.

my ma and my cuz helped my out a lot when i was out of money but i used to help my cuz and ma when i had job long time ago. now we help each other equally.

 

[deftonesrcool]

one of friend of my just reminded that didn't you just be suicidal. and i was like what oh yeah i really tried to kill myself not that long a ago. that seems like so long ago. two months ago i had no hope at all and was like drink all my money and then suicide with drugs is the best solution. now i got a job and some kind of future. unemployment and uncertainty is the one that fucked me up bad. i was certain i'll never get a fucking job but some miracles do happen lol

Tell me about it man. Having a sense of purpose is priceless.

I've absolutely pondered the notion of killing myself as well.

The key is to constantly re-invent yourself instead.

There's an impermanence to everything in life and that's one of the most beautiful things about it.

Nothing lasts forever, not me, not you, and especially not pain and suffering.

<3

 

[JackPineSavage]

Tell me about it man. Having a sense of purpose is priceless.

I've absolutely pondered the notion of killing myself as well.

The key is to constantly re-invent yourself instead.

There's an impermanence to everything in life and that's one of the most beautiful things about it.

Nothing lasts forever, not me, not you, and especially not pain and suffering.

<3

beautifully put those words.

yeah everyday i wake up i try to be a better version of myself or not try i am. but i try not hang up in the past any more. i have made a lot of mistakes but i can't change those and i can't choose the future so only thing i have any power is today. everyday i try to be better and give myself some meaning and it's a hell of a lot easier with a job that's for sure.

 

[deftonesrcool]

 

[NarohDethan]

I think that Nintendo conf made more harm than good. Like a rush of caffeine before returning to my sad reality