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daxy

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Most of you have probably seen this already, but I thought I'd post it in here anyway.


Seems like it could be pretty cathartic. Scared to write my first letter, but it seems pretty wholesome. I'll give it a shot later.

Edit: I've been playing a bit of and it's even better than I hoped. Best 4 euros I've spent all year.
 
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Jkm23

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Most of you have probably seen this already, but I thought I'd post it in here anyway.


Seems like it could be pretty cathartic. Scared to write my first letter, but it seems pretty wholesome. I'll give it a shot later.

Edit: I've been playing a bit of and it's even better than I hoped. Best 4 euros I've spent all year.
I'm going to try this. I've had a not so amazing Monday-Today. Only two people came to my club, (now in danger of being closed at the end of the year) my knee started hurting pretty bad when even walking and using stairs and now my entire autumn full of hiking is in jeopardy, my boss has been out all week and I'm alone in my dept, I'm officially an evil vaper and yeah.

I don't like surprises. Why not? Because of weeks like these. My whole job is answering and working through problems that are not known to me when my day begins (yes, you could say my job is handling "surprise mechanics"). Sudden unexpected injury, people cancelling attending a meeting, sudden edicts by a small dick dictator.

I think I'm going to download this game and give it a chance. Sounds really unique. Thank for you sharing it.
 
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BlindRhythm

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Most of you have probably seen this already, but I thought I'd post it in here anyway.


Seems like it could be pretty cathartic. Scared to write my first letter, but it seems pretty wholesome. I'll give it a shot later.

Edit: I've been playing a bit of and it's even better than I hoped. Best 4 euros I've spent all year.
That looks like something I would love doing! Thanks for sharing that.

Hopefully it can continue to be a source of positivity for a long time. :smiling-face-with-smiling-eyes:
 

daxy

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That looks like something I would love doing! Thanks for sharing that.

Hopefully it can continue to be a source of positivity for a long time. :smiling-face-with-smiling-eyes:
Hopefully! I've been "playing" it on and off today, and it's been a real pleasure. Lots of really supportive messages.
 
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I really need to start dating again.

Ugh, it just sounds like such a hopeless chore. I could use an anchor/compass in life though. Preferably one who enjoys pedicures.

Dang my weird self esteem issues

Dang them to heck

Gotta play the hand you're dealt, I guess
 

Halo Queen

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i dont do dating or stuff, its simply impossible for me to really truly trust someone and i dont think its fair for the person to be put through that circumstance of living on hope, i had a very horrible situation when i was young that i brielfy touch upon now and again which made me thaat,

but for myself right now im at this sorta stage in other sad news thoughill probs be probs around less in the coming or week or shortly after may dissapear for a short while, mostly will be due to probs my nan passing away, its a long story and i know i dont actually tlak about my personal life much but she has alot wrong with her and has been getting alotn worse ( a small short list of things would be ) parkinsons, huntinsons, asthma, copd, taking things like morphine and also has to take adrenaline tablets because her body doesnt produce andrenaline anymore
 

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i dont do dating or stuff, its simply impossible for me to really truly trust someone and i dont think its fair for the person to be put through that circumstance of living on hope, i had a very horrible situation when i was young that i brielfy touch upon now and again which made me thaat,

but for myself right now im at this sorta stage in other sad news thoughill probs be probs around less in the coming or week or shortly after may dissapear for a short while, mostly will be due to probs my nan passing away, its a long story and i know i dont actually tlak about my personal life much but she has alot wrong with her and has been getting alotn worse ( a small short list of things would be ) parkinsons, huntinsons, asthma, copd, taking things like morphine and also has to take adrenaline tablets because her body doesnt produce andrenaline anymore
Trust is such a fragile thing at times and I'm so sorry that the trust has been broken for you.. hopefully one day it will be possible to claim some of it back.

Sorry to hear about your grandmother too. I hope that you two will be able to spend as much time together as possible. Take all of time you need, we'll all be here when you're feeling like posting again. :)
 

supremeplatypus

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Wonder if I should just quit my fucking job. The whole event security thing isn't for me I feel, what with my shitty people skills and hatred of interacting with drunk people whilst sober. I went back to university to study software development so I could get a web development career or some other IT based career so I could avoid having to do customer service stuff, and the current job I have is just a part time job I have going on so I can get extra money. My parents support me at least so it's not like I absolutely the money or I'll be destitute (I'm very lucky in a way, many people don't even have that). I have a Biology degree that I got 3 years ago, and the thing is, I am crap at selling myself to new employers, and I haven't done much of note in my life at all. Which is why my life is a mess and I've been underemployed for all this time.

I hate being depressed. I pretty much need antidepressants to keep me going. Wish I could experience happiness for once.
 
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NarohDethan

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I've recently started dressing better. Like, a lot better. Ive become a huge fan of both J Crew and Ralph Lauren. To the point where I feel somewhat dressed down wearing anything but. I'm also adoring my 1000 mile Wolverine boots I now wear daily. All of this purchased second hand from ebay btw. All clothes simple in design and complementary in colors so I can mix and match outfits as I please.

Dressing well has boosted my confidence tremendously and I was even complimented by one of the most attractive women at work recently.

This is all part of me learning to love myself. It's hard to be angry and bitter when you're well dressed, you sleep (alone) in a king sized bed, have your own home office and den. I'm running out of things to be antsy about apart from my frustrations with dating and crippling familial issues.

Should start hitting the gym again after building this wardrobe. I cant afford to grow out of these clothes tbh.
Dressing well always lifts my spirits. I'm still a bit of a slob but there was a time I truly cared about my outfits. Gave me confidence and lots of compliments.
 
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Dressing well always lifts my spirits. I'm still a bit of a slob but there was a time I truly cared about my outfits. Gave me confidence and lots of compliments.
I have a hypothesis that life is a series of inputs and outputs. It's true when people say, "you are what you eat," but it's also true that if you present yourself well and people act in kind, that you can absorb that positive energy and reflect it back onto the world. Confidence is a fake it 'til you make it sort of thing; even Tom Ford admits he's ultimately insecure.
 
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Monooboe

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It's funny, my life keeps on improving but I don't feel better, in fact I often feel worse. It's like I always think that if just some things would improve in my life I would feel better, and when they do it doesn't help.

I also have such hard time adapting to change. So I got an apartment now, but it also meant that I lost my main source of food and now I have to live on one half meal per day for the rest of the month and it fucking sucks. It's like the body is in a constant state of panic.
 

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Dressing well always lifts my spirits. I'm still a bit of a slob but there was a time I truly cared about my outfits. Gave me confidence and lots of compliments.
On a similar note, I feel that keeping your home clean and being surrounded by a calming peaceful atmosphere in that respect can also help you carry that positive calming energy outside the home as well.
 
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Lately I've felt like everyone has given up on me, and that's been difficult since I feel even my fiance is burnt out with me. I've been trying my hardest to control and lose weight with no success (stress and depression eating...). I know I have sleep apnea but lately when I wake up from sleep or a nap I can feel my chest stinging, and I cant get a damn appointment for the sleep doctor for a sleep study without recommendation, and the heart specialists have called to reschedule my appointment for the 4th time in a row.
I'm scared im going to die and everyone has just accepted it's going to happen soon. I'm on the verge of starving myself to lose weight in a desperate attempt to take the weight off.
 

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I'm on the verge of starving myself to lose weight in a desperate attempt to take the weight off.
please don't do that ... that's, like, the worst thing you can do right now

just keep trying to schedule an appointment with the doc ... and see where it all goes from there

and hang in there!

 
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Everything you said I experience the same everyday. I know that deep dark pit that you can never seem to climb out of far too well.. But I've also seen the other side of it.. the aftermath that follows. I lost a good friend and one of my brothers when they took their own lives. And in my brother's case he and I were so much alike. Lonely, unlucky dudes that struggle with depression. He thought no one would be upset.. he was wrong. I miss him every day.

That's what keeps me from ever going that route. It might not seem like it, but there are folks that will remember and care. For me I can think of two in particular that it would devastate if I followed through.
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My mom recently got kicked out of her old workplace and is working at a new school (She's an english teacher). She doesn't like working at the new school one bit. She doesn't get paid as much as her old place. Now we're stuck in financial hell and I still can't get the nightmares of being broke out of my head.

I am trying to sign up for scholarships (GPA 2.6) so that I can win money, but I am not sure if that will help us for the long term. We are so fucked right now. I feel like I am about to start fucking crying.
 

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My mom recently got kicked out of her old workplace and is working at a new school (She's an english teacher). She doesn't like working at the new school one bit. She doesn't get paid as much as her old place. Now we're stuck in financial hell and I still can't get the nightmares of being broke out of my head.

I am trying to sign up for scholarships (GPA 2.6) so that I can win money, but I am not sure if that will help us for the long term. We are so fucked right now. I feel like I am about to start fucking crying.
Financial uncertainty is the worst.. I'm so sorry you and your mom are going through that right now.

Sadly money advice is something I'm not too great at giving, but I will keep my fingers crossed that a solution comes along for you! 🤞

And if those tears need to flow don't be afraid to let them. Sometimes I find that afterwards it helps clear my head, in that "Okay, this is my lowest right now.. what can I do to make it better?" kind of way. :)
 
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Lately I've felt like everyone has given up on me, and that's been difficult since I feel even my fiance is burnt out with me. I've been trying my hardest to control and lose weight with no success (stress and depression eating...). I know I have sleep apnea but lately when I wake up from sleep or a nap I can feel my chest stinging, and I cant get a damn appointment for the sleep doctor for a sleep study without recommendation, and the heart specialists have called to reschedule my appointment for the 4th time in a row.
I'm scared im going to die and everyone has just accepted it's going to happen soon. I'm on the verge of starving myself to lose weight in a desperate attempt to take the weight off.
Dont starve yourself, that's not healthy. Google intermittent fasting, keto, omad, or paleo. Join me and NarohDethan in the diet thread here. We have fun making a game of things

Walk more, swing a kettlebell around. Baby steps breh
 

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partial update, nan is currently in a coma and has been the past week now, summer is also really sick

:crying-face::crying-face:
 

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partial update, nan is currently in a coma and has been the past week now, summer is also really sick

:crying-face::crying-face:
The most important thing now, Queen, is to stay strong and be there for your family.

We don't know eachother that well, but from the generosity and love I've seen you display to strangers online, I know you have it in you.

Your family needs you now more than ever. Stay strong, soldier. <3
 
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Hektor

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Had a dream today where the cosplay girl i high key crushed on finally wrote me back. It felt SO GOOD. Why did i had to wake up back into this miserable life of mine fml.
 
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I haven't been at work for over a week now because of an annoying infection on the muscles of my back. Because of this, I can't do anything for a long time, so watching movies or long gaming sessions are out of the question. I feel so useless right now... 😞

Had a dream today where the cosplay girl i high key crushed on finally wrote me back. It felt SO GOOD. Why did i had to wake up back into this miserable life of mine fml.
Did you actually write her? You're a great guy Hektor, don't underestimate yourself!
 

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It's strange really, for so long I was so concentrated on survival, being homeless and all, I was just working on towards getting out of that situation that now that I have an own place, I feel completely lost. I isolate myself just like I used to do before, I've become completely paralysed, seems I can't get started to do anything. Looking back during really hard days I was in a suicidal mode because I was in panic for how my life was, now, while I'm not really suicidal I do feel dead inside. I so don't want to be "this", what I am.

I do guess being homeless for 20 months does leave some trauma that will take some time to process.
 

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It's strange really, for so long I was so concentrated on survival, being homeless and all, I was just working on towards getting out of that situation that now that I have an own place, I feel completely lost. I isolate myself just like I used to do before, I've become completely paralysed, seems I can't get started to do anything. Looking back during really hard days I was in a suicidal mode because I was in panic for how my life was, now, while I'm not really suicidal I do feel dead inside. I so don't want to be "this", what I am.

I do guess being homeless for 20 months does leave some trauma that will take some time to process.
Having your own place does indeed come with a bit of a shock. The first nights I even thought if I made a mistake, felt really alone, etc. But it gets better, hang on!
 

Ge0force

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It's strange really, for so long I was so concentrated on survival, being homeless and all, I was just working on towards getting out of that situation that now that I have an own place, I feel completely lost. I isolate myself just like I used to do before, I've become completely paralysed, seems I can't get started to do anything. Looking back during really hard days I was in a suicidal mode because I was in panic for how my life was, now, while I'm not really suicidal I do feel dead inside. I so don't want to be "this", what I am.

I do guess being homeless for 20 months does leave some trauma that will take some time to process.
Having your own place was a huge (first) step to get a better life. Perhaps getting out of your social isolation can be the next one? Going to the gym or following an evening course is a great way to meet new people for example. Don't give up now!
 

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Yeah you are right lashman NarohDethan Ge0force ! I think I'm still in that mindset that I don't "trust" this, I actually think I just sit at home because I'm worried that if I don't it will all go away.XD I know fully illogical but that's what I think my subconscious is trying to do at least. I think when I get the go ahead that I will be staying here longer I think I will start to be out int he world more also.

Speaking of cats also, I think having cats for eight years also messed me up in that I always had the sense I had to be home to take care of the cats, so now having own place and not having to be here if I don't want to, I think I will explore the world with a sense of "go with the flow" and explore.

But yes, I really need to do things where I meet people also, gym is planned but I will probably do that with headphones on at all times.XD But evening courses sounds good!
 

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Monooboe sounds like you've been through a lot of changes recently in life. Listen to your brain and your body. Isolation isn't always a bad thing
Could be you're just spending time to yourself to figure yourself out again. I do it all the time, and if people wonder why I dont go out. Screw 'em. If you're feeling like you need to get out more then that's your brain telling you you're ready. Dont force it.

Just my 2 cents
 
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Hektor

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Felt really lonely and depressed today for no particular reason, but an hour ago an old classmate from college send out a mail to me and the other classmates asking what we've been up to and now a bunch of us started talking about a potential class reunion, and this absolutely made my day.

Back then i would have considered everyone of them a friend (well, we were only 9 people) despite the college itself, it was a fun time.
But we had completely ceased meeting after the suicide case that i talked about in the past.

I haven't spoken to any of them in almost a decade and i'm this close to crying.
This would be so cool.