Dead & Forgotten
- Sep 5, 2018
That's great news! Glad you've been able to sleep better!The last few years i've been plagued by nightmares a lot, but since earlier this year, my dreams have improved quite well, not dreading to sleep anymore is an amazing feeling and not something one can take for granted.
That's great news! Glad you've been able to sleep better!
Some of those dreams you talked about reminded me of two I had when I was young that were either tame compared to the nightmares I usually have during the rare times I do dream or in the case of the one, it was actually helpful.
One was me and my brothers sitting in some kitchen/dining room surrounded by windows, when suddenly an older woman appeared and started talking about how the world was ending. After about a minute of that she suddenly stops talking and just shouts, "You must go! Go now!" as the glass in every window shatters, shards flying into the dining room. As we turn to leave one of my brothers notices an arcade machine that he unplugs and argues with us to help him carry it. For whatever reason after that we're all carrying this arcade machine through a desert and every so often another brother tells us to set it down so he can play before realizing once again that there's obviously no power. The dream ends with us all collapsing in the desert.
The other dream is so stupid but weirdly helpful. At the time I was playing FF6 I never really had any experience with fighting games so move inputs weren't something I understood. So eight year old me was getting incredibly frustrated with trying to figure out Sabin's attacks. A couple nights of that later I eventually had a dream that was like, "Hey stupid, stop trying to do it one by one. Roll your thumb across the d-pad!" So yeah.. thanks to that dumb dream FF6 is still one of, if not my top, favorite Final Fantasy game. I'm still terrible at fighting games though.
You say that now but after enduring eternal freezing darkness the brief glimpse of warmth that you've waited and now denied can really get to you. We are traveling to Prague but I expect it to start snowing the instant I set my foot there.ahhhh ... the perfect summer!
brb, moving to Finland
nah, man ... i fucking hate summer ... anything above 20C is torture to meYou say that now but after enduring eternal freezing darkness the brief glimpse of warmth that you've waited and now denied can really get to you. We are traveling to Prague but I expect it to start snowing the instant I set my foot there.
37°C here, will gladly switch places with you lolThe eternal feeling of being betrayed by the Finnish summer. I'm super bummed at the moment 'cause it's windy, cloudy and generally just not very summerish. Summer is so short and it's the one time of the year I enjoy being outside and all that malarkey when it's genuinely warm and welcoming. Too bad this year people from warm countries are vacationing here because it's cold.
I know this is not really a big thing but it's just disheartening to watch the weather forecasts that only shit on my expectations of having a great time.
Well that doesnt sound that good lol but the thing is that I really hate summer, especially because the power bill always comes ridiculously high.I already hate dealing with the cold weather here every winter, between frozen/busted pipes meaning no water for sometimes weeks, losing power during days with freezing rain and being without heat for hours to days, to worrying if the farm cats will make it despite taking every precaution to try to ensure they do. I can't imagine -30C for weeks at a time. We'll occasionally hit that here, but it only lasts a day or two.
Give me my hot summers over that any day!
Oh yeah, that's definitely a problem here too. Though here the bill during summer is usually half what the winter one is since the furnace has to run almost constantly for a minimum of three months. The bill for December last year was over $300, partly thanks to Christmas lights and the tree, but it was also an extremely cold month for us.Well that doesnt sound that good lol but the thing is that I really hate summer, especially because the power bill always comes ridiculously high.
That's great! I'm happy to hear that everything is getting better and that you know what you're doing is being recognized.I'm actually feeling quite good as of late, and everything seems to be falling into place. My house is a mess and I need to start dating again soon (ew) but I think I may have finally found the stability and structure I needed in life in order to move forward. I'm comfortable with who I am again for the first time in years and I'm leaving loads of my past attributes behind in favor of new, more befitting ones. I'm winning awards at work and recently placed 4th overall of 31 employees in my metrics, and I'm a new employee still. Bosses, customers and coworkers all like me, and I finally feel like I belong somewhere.
I've been in a similar spot lately. Constantly frustrated and upset with myself. It's why I've been posting less often again.I've been so damn angry lately, It's like constantly small things that add up. My life is so much better now than before but now I kind of hate it more. Latest "oh fucking of course" is that I forgot my ear plugs in my other jacket that's in a locker, not sure how I'm going to sleep listening to hundreds homeless people with breathing problems snoring.
It's usually the small things that seem to hit the hardest. It sucks.so, I nearly had a mental breakdown yesterday. For around a month, I had PC troubles, mainly with the sound not working on my browser and this is coupled with working OT hours for a month now. Frustration was increasing as no one was able to help me so I decided to use the nuke option and reinstall windows......and I forgot to back up the drivers for the network. So I was frantically trying to find the disc for them, turns out they were the wrong ones and I just....mentally snapped as i started ranting for an hour or so about everything and couple with the depression i get around this time of year i felt like everything i do was hopeless. thankfully things are better today but damn. I do not want to feel like I'm going to have a heart attack by the end of the day.
Thanks for the cats! Thankfully the night was fine, for some reason the beds next to mine were empty, so phew.I've been in a similar spot lately. Constantly frustrated and upset with myself. It's why I've been posting less often again.
So while I sadly don't have any advice to give I can offer the hope that things will get better and hopefully for the both of us.
Can offer another cute cat gif too at least.
That sounds like such a great time! I wish we had one around here. If it wasn't for the fact I live in the middle of nowhere I could practically start my own with all of the cats that hang around outside.Speaking of cats, I think I will visit the cat cafe next time I get money!