I guess this is as good an occasion as any to develop on the 'story for another post'.
Let me first say that I don't think psy are useless, and also fully admit I'm very probably partly to blame for my past failed experiences with them.
Psy 1 (pre-teen)
At that time I'm super shy and never go out alone. I know nothing about navigating a city alone.
'For our second session, you will come alone, by public transportation.'
'I see you are the kind to put claustrophobic people in a closet. I hopefully never will see you again.'
Psy 2 (late teen, early adulthood)
We hadn't the best relationship, partly because it was pretty evident to him and me that I was seeing him in order to avoid military service (let me remind you I have social phobia, the perspective of leaving my house for months to live with a pack of strangers was not my cup of tea).
He drove me up the wall with shit like...
'You internalize too much.'
'What do you mean, what can I do ?'
'You tell me.'
Psy 3 (10-15 years ago, I was in a bad place)
'Ok, I go on holidays tomorrow, until I come back you stop reading news, stop coffee and promise me you won't kill yourself'.
She terrified me more than my anxiety.
Psy 4
Sent by the social worker I have to see today. No sparks at all, no chemistry, just a random guy in my eyes.
He decided my anxiety meds are outdated. I agree !
He then decided, instead of trying to diminish them and put small doses of another one at the same time, that I had to quit cold turkey before taking another treatment. What any idiot could predict happened, several weeks in I hit bottom and was in a killing myself mood. What a fucking surprise.
Again, I'm not the best with psy, I can totally acknowledge my shortcomings. This post is mainly illustrative.
And yeah, what will probably come to your mind, and is on the mind of the woman I will go see today, is that I need to resume seeing Psy 4. It's, I admit, not a bright idea to stop there. He made some strange decision but there is room to continue. Issue is, I don't want to see this man again.
Having been a little educated on the subject during my philosophy classes a lifetime ago, I know that it is not a good thing to gel too much with your psy, that you risk 'projection'. I know. But I still want to like my psy a little bit.
One takeaway that is on me and not on me, let's say a key to my behavior with these people, is in Psy 2. I need active help, I don't really know how to handle or care about passive help, which is their whole point. The moment we hit the 'tell me how you can help yourself' phase of the discussion I roll my eyes so hard that I have an out of body experience.