- Apr 18, 2019
I'm sorry to hear you aren't doing alright. This time of year sucks, but remember that it's just a passing thing. You don't and can't know what is going to happen. What's clear to me is that you have mental health issues, and that trying what little you can, a little at a time every day could help you.5. Even then, I don’t really play, or very little. I feel guilty to not be a working adult and a miserable piece of shit. My brain is no fool and isn’t duped, it sends very clear signals amounting to ‘you don’t fool me, no escapism for you’.
Basically, I’m so very tired. Invoices, loneliness and no conceivable future. I would like a future, it must feel good.
Self-help books, finding a therapist near you (which I think are more or less covered by national health insurance), finding something that gives you hope as a path into the future could help.
All the same, your brain is your worst critic and I dare say that he's dead wrong about you given the amount of self-loathing you engage in. I think it's all about finding what is manageable for you, and trying, failing and resting, then trying again.
All the best, you're gonna get there!